Kenan Thompson revealed in his new memoir that he virtually stop Saturday Evening Reside a couple of years into his tenure as a forged member that started in 2003. The comic, 45, recalled making “a ton of rookie errors” throughout a number of sketches, one in all which was written by T. Sean Shannon and featured Alec Baldwin, which led to him dropping confidence in himself, in line with PEOPLE.

“I had no concept if I used to be doing job or not,” Kenan wrote in After I Was Your Age: Life Classes, Humorous Tales & Questionable Parenting Recommendation from a Skilled Clown, which got here out December 5. “When the season completed, I didn’t even suppose I’d be requested again. I knew I wanted to get higher at writing my very own characters, and prayed I’d get one other season to take a stab at it,” he added.

Kenan recalled that when he began “having zero airtime throughout a present,” he “virtually stop” the enduring sketch comedy sequence. “I used to be like, ‘What the hell am I doing right here?’ I used to be well-known sufficient that individuals have been attempting to observe me off the subway, however I couldn’t get on the present,” he wrote. “It led to many depressive emotions.”

Nevertheless, Kenan ultimately talked to fellow forged member Maya Rudolph who advised the Kenan & Kel alum he was picked for SNL for a motive. “‘It was a no brainer,’ she stated. ‘We may let you know have been prepared and also you’re lovely. All of us stated, ‘Clearly, it’s Kenan,’ ” Kenan recalled, including that he “totally freaked out” after that dialog with Maya.

“I actually had a seat subsequent to one of the crucial gifted performers I had ever seen. Her pedigree was legendary,” wrote in his ebook. “To be complimented by somebody you admire was humbling and enlightening. I wasn’t only a child laughing at his personal jokes in entrance of the mirror. I’d been validated. To listen to that the issues I used to be doing resonated with individuals was heavy, man. That had a big impact on me and was a turning level.”

Kenan is at present the longest-tenured forged member on SNL. He’s been nominated for 5 Primetime Emmy Awards for the present, successful as soon as in 2018.

In January, Kenan opened up about his future on SNL. He advised E! Information that he’ll keep on the present — as long as creator Lorne Michaels desires him there.

“I can inform after I’m bringing one thing to the desk on Wednesday and the individuals within the room sound like they’ve heard this earlier than, so far as their laughter is anxious, it’s a significant distinction than when someone actually finds one thing hilarious,” he stated. “I’m at all times attempting to hit that be aware. Generally I do, and typically I don’t. So, I suppose each time it begins to change into as a rule, I’m really not doing effectively, it’ll most likely be time to do one thing else.”